Mix: Rebel Car Crash [personal]

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Fandom:n/a
Subject: myself
Title: rebel car crash
Warnings/Notes: I had many many songs but I think I managed to break it down, using the meme, into something that flows together and makes some sort of sense. My health is a big part of me so it is mentioned a lot and these songs are very personal to me. it feels almost weird to share my connection with each. tried to lighten up towards the end. :) enjoy. this is a mix to help people get to know me better.

a song that would play in the movie trailer of your life & a song with lyrics you’d like to tattoo on yourself

this is the song i turn to when my depression tries to sink its claws in. this is the song i turn up and cry to.
this is the song i played over and over again for nearly a year when it came out as a 9 year old kid trying to hold on.
this is my song, and it means the world to me.

This is for the ones who stood their ground
It's for Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck, it ain't enough, you've got to make your own breaks

It's my life, it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

bon jovi - it's my life


a song for your favorite day of the week

i remember singing this while helping my dad put his shopping away and finding joy in it.
at the time i didn't appreciate the lyrics so much but i associate it with saturdays which i love,
good times and good memories

Hey man I'm alive I'm takin' each day and night at a time
Yeah I'm down, but I know I'll get by
Hey hey hey hey, man gotta live my life
Like I ain't got nothin' but this roll of the dice
I'm feelin' like a Monday, but someday I'll be Saturday night

Bon Jovi - Someday I'll be Saturday Night

a song that was your high school anthem

i first heard this song 7 years after i became diabetic, and it had felt like it had
gone so fast. everything was a whirlwind of pain, being told i couldn't do things, defying instructions
and screwing things up. i was in a hard place, trying very hard to get control back and i just wanted to
go to sleep and for someone to wake me up when it was ok again. it got better but i never for back what i lost.
i basically put my immune system through so much that it never recovered. this song reminds me where i was,
how i got out of it and makes me promise never to go back.

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

green day - wake me up when september ends

a song you want your friends to love as much as you do

this was another anthem for me. it made me think a lot about my situation and what was really important.

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game


It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

30 seconds to mars - a beautiful lie



a song you’ve heard live

i'm very fussy about who i will pay to see live.
i've been to see bon jovi several times though and adore their
performances. they are my all time fave band

Whooah, we're half way there
Livin' on a prayer
Take my hand and we'll make it - I swear
Livin' on a prayer

Tommy's got his six string in hock
Now he's holding in what he used
To make it talk - so tough, it's tough
Gina dreams of running away
When she cries in the night
Tommy whispers baby it's okay, someday

We've got to hold on to what we've got
'Cause it doesn't make a difference
If we make it or not
We've got each other and that's a lot
For love - we'll give it a shot

bon jovi - livin on a prayer


a song for being an adult

i was very politicaly aware at a young age, because the nhs
is a political football and i rely on it. it made me look at other things
and i get very passionate about things i believe in. now i'm an adult i
am very concious of my ability to change things

Look at your young men fighting
Look at your women crying
Look at your young men dying
The way they've always done before

Look at the hate we're breeding
Look at the fear we're feeding
Look at the lives we're leading
The way we've always done before

My hands are tied
The billions shift from side to side
And the wars go on with brainwashed pride
For the love of God and our human rights
And all these things are swept aside
By bloody hands time can't deny
And are washed away by your genocide
And history hides the lies of our civil wars

guns n roses - civil war


a song you’ve recently fallen in love with

i mentioned i did stupid things to my diabetes and paid the price.
it took me a long time to not want to go back and change things, to accept
the person i am is one i can be proud of and is a result of the mistakes i made.
this song hit me like a wall when i heard it. it brings it all back.

If heaven’s grief brings hell’s rain
Then I’d trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday
(I know I’m bad news)
For just one yesterday
(I saved it all for you)
Oh, I want to teach you a lesson in the worst kind of way
Still I’d trade all my tomorrows for just one yesterday
(I know I’m bad news)
For just one yesterday
(I saved it all for you)
For just one yesterday

Fall Out Boy - Just One Yesterday


a song that you love to belt out in the shower

my diabetes is again in the toilet along with
my mental health but that wasn't me, that was life. i found out
who my true friends are, and i'm still a rock star with or without them

I'm still a rock star,
I got my rock moves,
And I don't need you,
And guess what,
I'm having more fun,
And now that we’re done,
I'm gonna show you tonight,
I'm alright,
I'm just fine,
And you're a tool,
So, so what,
I am a rock star,
I got my rock moves,
And I don't want you tonight.

P!nk - So what

a song you love that isn’t in your native language

angry music lets me get my frustrations out in a sensible way.
and german music can sound very angry. and catchy. and awesome.

Willst du bis zum Tod, der scheide
Siie lieben auch in schlechten Tagen
Nein, nein
Du, du hast
Du hast mich
Du, du hast
Du hast mich

rammstein - du hast




a song you love with no lyrics

I adore instrumentals. no lyrics to think about means i can just feel

London Ensemble - lux aeterna

a song that begins with the same letter as your name

i'm worst at what i do best is me in a shell. i take care of my health like a champ,
so well i made myself worse by trying too hard.

I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

nirvana - smells like teen spirit



a song you’d kick zombie ass to during the apocalypse

i'd be trying to be sensible while internally screaming and yet not caring
about the consequences anymore cause i've thought of so many odd scenarios and they all
end in no insulin and me dying anyway so why not go out with a bang?

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
What creates my own madness
And I'm addicted to your punishment
And you're the master
And I am waiting for disaster


I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth I am
Getting away with murder
It isn't possible
To never tell the truth
But the reality is I'm getting away with murder


papa roach - getting away with murder