Mix: Fear and Loathing

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This mix is for the story Fear and Loathing (Mistakes Were Made) by cerberusia for marvel_bang. It is a wonderful piece that really tugs at the heartstrings. I recommend that you read it! It can be found here. The quotes seen here are from the fic.

"Fuck you. Fuck you," John snarls. He's not slurring any more, but he's still too tired to put forward all his arguments, all he learnt from listening to and talking with Magneto. "We're special, damnit, and even if we weren't we'd still deserve better than this!"

Evanescence - hello

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide

"Is it funny that I can still recognise your footsteps? Or just stupid?" John is momentarily taken aback, but quickly regains his equilibrium and shrugs, even though Bobby can't see it.

"Pretty useful, I'd say."

Kasabian – fire

Shake me into the night
And I'm an easy lover
Take me into the fight
And I'm an easy brother
And I'm on fire

"Why did you think I wouldn't remember?" Bobby shifts uncomfortable, but doesn't look away.

"I thought you wouldn't want to remember," he admits, worrying his bottom lip between his teeth.
"Why the fuck wouldn't I want to remember?" Seriously, this shit makes no sense.

Linkin Park - what I’ve done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty

Ungrateful cowards, all of them, boot-licking traitors - but John reins himself in, bites his tongue. They barely tolerate him as it is: the last thing he needs is to set the spark to ignite them.

Skid Row - youth gone wild

Since I was born they couldn't hold me down
Another misfit kid, another burned-out town

Never played by the rules I never really cared
My nasty reputation takes me everywhere

I look and see it's not only me
So many others have stood where I stand
We are the young so raise your hands

They call us problem child
We spend our lives on trial
We walk an endless mile
We are the youth gone wild

"You know how you got out of Alcatraz alive?" Bobby asks him, tone sharp. John shakes his head. "Me," he snaps. "I carried you out. We were meant to leave after Magneto and Phoenix were taken care of, but I went back for you. You'd left us, you'd betrayed us, you'd attacked me and I'd knocked you out, we were enemies - but I couldn't leave you."

Lost Profits - rooftops

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun

Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried

Bobby's hands are clenched into fists. He looks anguished. "Look, you've developed extremist ideals and done some scary, stupid, bad stuff - but you're still you. My best friend, could-have-been-boyfriend, fuck, John, what do you want me to say?"

Velvet Revolver - slither

Always keep me under finger
That's the spot where you might linger
But I see some type of pleasure in my mind

He can't handle this. He doesn't know - doesn't want to know - what this is. Fuck. Fuck. "If Magneto's still alive, I've got to find him," he says, turning back to packing, breathing slowly and deliberately to calm his heartbeat.

Fun- some nights.

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know...

“ I've got to find him again - because he's got a piece of me with him.”

Alter Bridge - metalingus

I've been defeated and brought down
Dropped to my knees when hope ran out
The time has come to change my ways

On this day I see clearly everything has come to life
A bitter place and a broken dream
And we'll leave it all, leave it all behind

I'll never long for what might have been
Regret won't waste my life again
I won't look back
I'll fight to remain